ARCs are here! How weird.

Christmas Eve a package arrived at my front door. Not too surprising–except for what was in it! My ARCs — Advanced Readers’ Copies of Watersmeet!  There it was–with a cover, each page laid out as it will be in the real thing! Wow! I had no idea what to feel. It still doesn’t feel quite real. Some of my class of 2k9 friends have reported crying when they got their ARCs. I got a little choked up, but mostly I was just numb. How do you relate to something that you have been working towards for more than 10 years? Is it the realization of your dreams? I hardly know….It’s now out there– being sent to bloggers and reviewers and librarians and booksellers and audiobook manufacturers and European publishers and who else? How will it be received? I was pretty wigged out when I found out it was sent to teen reviewers a while back, but this is so beyond that I don’t know how to wrap my head around it. When I read the words, it feels like my book. But when I look at it as an object, it feels somehow disconncted. Strange. I think it has been so private for so long that it’s hard to think of it–of me— being out there in the world. So few have read it! It reminds me again of how badly I need to get into a crit group….

My wise friend Deanna said it best. When I was freaking out about the teen reviewers, she said, “Well, Ellen, you are basically standing naked in front of the world.” Yup.


~ by ellenjensenabbott on December 27, 2008.

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